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Nearly starved to death. Wished to be blissfully unaware. Spent lots of time with Rocket Science. Smiled in private moments, excited about my life. Thought about leaving for Portland early. Talked to m. Went to a rockin’ show in Arlington with DJ S. Wanted a cigarette badly on two occasions. Got very drunk Friday night and Sunday night. Cried. Reminisced. Thought about how much I love m. Requested gus gus at Dragonfly. Took zero pictures of my final weekend. Had a friend I always adored tell me I wasn’t to be taken for granted. Gossiped with m. Was bored and overwhelmed all at once. Rode the metro while drunk from the previous night. Watched the snow fall on Sunday and felt like a kid again. Ate a delicious goodbye dinner with the VA kids. Backed up all my work and thought I deleted my mp3 collection. Helped Kim move furniture out of my condo and met Cameron (who is as adorable as her mother). Texted m. Dreaded coming into work for my final three days. Thought about never drinking again. Got excited to be in Portland, over and over and over. Laughed. Remembered all of and discovered more reasons I’m moving… and feeling like this is the clearest decision I’ve ever made. Felt left out for a small time. Met an amazing person at an Oscar party. Missed m. Thought about what color my new room should be. Worried about shipping my bicycle. Stared at boxes on the floor while I should have been packing things into them. Got distracted by a hangover, twice. Realized who I truly care about (which included my parents). Understood that I love myself.