So I’ve tried to rationalize
keeping the car… but the math doesn’t work out in my head. I’ve posted an ad on Craigslist to see what sort of responses I get. If I freak out, I can always pull the ad, right?
Right.

(It’s just a machine.)
It’s hard to start new when you tell someone you really care for about the things in your past that you wanted so dearly to run away from.
I imagined, for a time, that I could move here and just make up a new me… Not tell anyone what I didn’t want them to know. But I talk too much anyway… What good does it do?
What good?
We applied for a house today…
I made it just over six months. It’s still an accomplishment… This time it’s different; I’m not sacrificing anything, and I’m not doing it for the wrong reasons.
Plus, he meets all of my requirements.

It’s fucking amazing when some people just surprise the shit out of you.
Jamie, omg you are awesome! Thank you!

I have someone who “wouldn’t change a thing”.
