And ready. And waiting.
And trying.
…
And still in disbelief.
But I am not alone.
It will be inspiring.
Monthly Archive for July, 2007
I am full.
I was torn for a while between this, and this. Both had their pros and cons, but I went with the day pack because it was more comfortable on my back and less expensive.
I’m super happy I didn’t spend a lot of money on it, and the Timbuk2 bag had nearly half the features as the Novara and was almost double the price. Still, the REI bag is lighter and I can do more with it… and I never really liked the feeling of having one shoulder carrying all the weight of the bag.
Plus.
It’s green. :)
Really.
I mean, do I *need* this crap?
I ask myself this before shopping and am learning to walk away when the answer is “no”. Being so utterly saturated with advertising is equal to brainwashing. And I’m always skeptical.
However, I’m trying to upgrade a few things in my wardrobe, so to be fair, I’m getting rid of as much as I’m bringing in.
Although I’m heavily against carrying a “purse”, a new bag for commuting to and from work is something I’ve become interested in; the one I currently carry is suddenly ripped. (What happened to my bus pass?) I am having trouble deciding on what to buy, mainly because I haven’t actually tried carrying any of the front-runners (since I’m shopping online). (This one’s pretty sweet, but $12.00 shipping? And no return policy anywhere to be found? Ugh…).
Today I bought a few cute pairs of socks, because I think socks can make a statement. (And mine are all plain black. No statement there.) I also bought insoles because my feet hurt so goddamn much from walking everywhere.
I’m getting rid of some dresses that make me look pregnant, shoes I don’t wear anymore and skirts I thought were awesome for like five seconds. This weekend I’ll take a bag of crap I hate and sell it off at Buffalo Exchange. Should be interesting. :)
(To give the boy credit, even when sometimes I think he’s ridiculous, the BG has inspired me to be more thrifty and encourages my newfound obsession with being mobile and minimalistic. He questions everything regarding his money and is the most frugal person I know. It’s awesome to watch in action.)
We had summer for about a week earlier this month. It reached 100 degrees on a few days but felt nothing like summers do on the east coast. It was bearable. This week it has dipped back down to the upper 70’s, lower 80’s and there is a crispness to the air that is reminiscent of an eastern early spring.
I love it.
Last Friday, I sold the motorcycle… to someone who hasn’t ridden in fifteen years. It was stressful to watch him leave. I called him the next morning to make sure he made it home safe. The moment he was gone and I was looking at the cash he gave me, I felt a huge sense of financial relief.
This week I’ve paid off debts. Namely, my parents, from whom I borrowed money for the first time. The savings account is also finally showing a balance, and I don’t really feel guilty buying stuff now. Not that I’m being frivolous…
Time is winding down for the BG and I, and I am anxious. I have been paying attention to the hours when he is not around, making sure I feel good… and I do. In fact, I feel really good. Since Holly and Jay have adjusted their schedules, all four of us are now home together on Monday nights, which have turned into dinner/house meetings/general socializing/catching up with each other. I’ve worked on a few small freelance projects here and there and managed to start a garden with all the plants the BG has so awesomely given to me.
I’ve been taking the bus and walking everywhere (goooooo less dependency on oil!) for the past two months and now that I don’t own a vehicle (for the first time in twelve years!) the tension of travel has subsided. I am calm! I am reading books! I never realized how really quite stressful driving a vehicle can be. Earlier this month I blew through Snow Flower and the Secret Fan and I’ve moved on to Jupiter’s Travels… and it is wonderful.
The trip back east, which I’m sure will be a whirlwind, is something I’m really looking forward to. Besides seeing my family, I’ll get to meet the BG’s family and friends, camp in the mountains of Georgia and see Atlanta. I’ve never been… and I’m excited about it. :)
I’ve thought about skipping the AfterhoursDJs Spinoff this year. Although the trip next week will be awesome, I won’t see m and that really kills me. I’d really like to see hug her before Merry F’in Xmas (or sometime around then) because December is really far away!
We’ll see.
But yea. It’s July. The wind is chilly, and things are good.
And keep on…
Leaves are more interesting, flowers brighter.
Emotions are more stable, I am not judged.
My eyes are more open, accepting.
There is a yellow brick road ahead, I’m seeing it now.
