Monthly Archive for August, 2007

weekend, camping and updates

I went camping alone at Cape Meares this weekend. It rocked.

I started off Saturday morning at the UPS store shipping a box of happiness to the BG. At that point I had no idea where I was going to end up camping because most of the sites I tried to reserve were booked. The dude at UPS actually told me about Cape Meares and printed me a map and directions (what a nice guy!). It was super easy to get to, just outside of Tillamook, and there was no one there save for a few stray walkers along the beach during daylight.

It was just what I needed, apparently, because since then I’ve felt really great. Accomplishing goals do that for me. :)

For Five Hours...

This week, on Thursday, I’m going to walk over to Habitat for Humanity’s ReStore warehouse (which is just one block from my work building) and talk to a guy named Joe about volunteering on Saturdays. I’m pretty excited about it.

I finished another sizable site at work this week and it’s going to look awesome when it goes live. I didn’t design it, Hilary did, but I did all the page layout in CSS. There were some hurdles I had to jump over to get everything looking right because the original site was done with tables. I had to take apart everything and rearrange some stuff. Anyway, the bosses and Hilary are happy and so am I.

I’ve been riding my bike to and from work for two weeks now and I’m having major pain in my left hip. It’s the same stupid pain I get when I stand in a line for too long, or wash dishes in the same spot without moving, or standing and waiting for the bus… except this is like 20 times worse. I believe my bicycle needs adjustment. My handlebars are low, I have long legs and a short-ish torso. There’s definitely something up, so I’m waiting for a call back from the downtown Bike Gallery. I am making an appointment for a fitting service. It’s $75 and they have a one-year guarantee (I can go back any time and fine tune adjustments as necessary). Hopefully this works and the pain subsides. I bailed on salsa class last night because I could barely walk.

There are a few people I’ve talked to via email that I’m hoping to meet soon; one from CL and two I got connected to through m. They all sound like sweethearts.

And speaking of sweethearts, last night I hung out with Holly and it was great. That girl kicks ass.

I have 8 more days until I see m. We shall re-spark the tewtal awesomeness that I miss so much.

My goal for this weekend is to figure out my Holga, which I got in the mail yesterday. The packaging and stuff that it came with looks pretty sweet. I’m set. I’m not sure if I have enough time to take pics and get them developed before I leave for PA; I’d like to make sure I’m doing this shit right before I take photos when I’m with m. We’ll see.

Teehee!!!

budget #1

So yes. I’m supposed to be on a budget… and I haven’t even looked at my spending since I got back from our trip but I already know that I haven’t done well.

Here it is. (BG, please don’t kill me.)

Continue reading ‘budget #1′

solo camp

I’m about to go camping on the coast for the first time alone.

I’m excited, but nervous.

Also, I have no idea where I’m going to end up, because shit was booked up.

We’ll see. :)

action

This week has been full of goings ons.

I saw Theresa the other night with a bunch of her friends (who are all awesome). I bonded with mom, again (!), and today I went to an intense hatha yoga class. After my class, I went to see Superbad “with the BG“. (He went, and I went, but you know, we’re on two separate sides of the country. It’s as good as a cyber date with m!) I’m having people over tomorrow night, attending a soap box derby on Saturday and then driving to the coast for the rest of the weekend.

In the journal I’ve been keeping, I make it a point to end each entry on a positive note, no matter how shitty I feel when I begin writing. The first one I didn’t do that to happened Tuesday. I think it’s the one of the lowest points I’ve sunk to in a long while, and it scared the shit out of me.

I didn’t really have any definitive *plan* here in Portland. I have a TON of shit I want to accomplish, but none of them are really Portland-dependent. The reason I came here was first… to actually *get* here. Beyond that I just want to see how well I can make myself happy, travel around to new places a bit, and maybe hook up some volunteer work.

Tuesday’s journal entry is proof of how bad my headspace can get. I became overwhelmed with sadness and lost control. I was in the midst of a personal struggle to let go of the idea of what my life would be in Portland as how I had conceived it months before I got here. Thoughts about how I would live, what I’d feel. The idea wasn’t really well-developed, but entertaining the notion of moving next year (so soon!) felt like I was giving up. But the thought kept creeping into my head!

My blog is my book of admissions. So (sigh) yes, I’m thinking of heading east again, to Raleigh, next year. I shall live in the tent, rent-free, and have my adventures with the BG once again. In the meantime, I have about a year of me-time here in PDX.

I’ve had some amazing moments this week. I’ve felt great sadness, confusion, inadequacy… but also appreciation, affection and happiness. I love being here because things just come together. Portland is definitely taking care of me. Every day is a learning experience; I understand something new, discover a beautiful scene, take a good picture, appreciate my life. I feel so *full*.

That is basically why I’m here: To be animated and curious and remember the child inside.

And if I do all that, *and* find my BG? Well… :)

I am so happy. I don’t think I could say that, ever, with any real confidence… until now.

so so so…

I am the luckiest girl in the world.

I have everything I’ve ever dreamed of, and more.

So it’s time to enjoy it.

holga 120cfn

All week I’ve been reading about the camera that takes these pics. I found out that it’s a cheap one to purchase, so I bought it. I haven’t screwed around with manual photography in a long time. This will be fun. :)

Holga CFN 120

I got the Holga CFN which has a 3-choice dial on the top for the color flash.

Hokey? Yes.

Charming? Yes.

I am excited.