Monthly Archive for December, 2007

way outside

We’re not in Kansas anymore.

This weekend I blew through the rest of Beyond Civilization and as much as I’d love to write about how I feel and what I’ve learned, I’m currently much more consumed by further acceptance of the situation we’re in. For now I’m just sitting back and observing with a new (more refined) perspective.

And forget about the crap I was saying in my last post. I’m way beyond programs now.

Just before I picked up BC I started the 500+ page A Short History of the World. I received good grades in school while growing up, but fuck if I ever *really* paid attention. Here is my attempt at re-educating myself… a bit of background is required for me to fully grasp all the hundreds of references Quinn continually mentions in *all* of his books.

hosting, aware

So, the BG is right on many counts. He’s repeatedly told me that pair is the best hosting service around.

M has been asking for help on getting set up on a Wordpress account on her own domain, so I’ve been reading up on this pair company and I think he may be right. I’ll be switching from godaddy.com to pair as soon as m is all hooked up… mainly because of the BG’s recommendation… and this.

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Ok, so on a total side note here. I’m currently reading Beyond Civilization and do realize (both from reading this and The Story of B) that the reason I’m switching hosts is based on pair’s participation in programs. I am not far enough through the book and, admittedly, have yet to comprehend how one moves along in this society *without* using programs. Still trying…

To be continued…

alliteration

I am downright drained, deaf, dizzy and drugged up.

Guess I’ll go to bed now…

what’s been up

So a lot has happened in the past few weeks, I’ve just been kinda bored of blogging.

The weekend prior to Thanksgiving the BG and I went camping at South Mountains State Park, in the western part of the state. We made it there late and hiked up a seriously big hill which proved just how stiff and out of shape I am. It was pretty chilly the night we were there, but we unzipped the windows in the roof of the tent and snuggled up to watch the moon set. It was awesome. As we hiked out the next day we saw a pretty waterfall. (Pictures coming soon.)

Thanksgiving was really nice. We drove down to Georgia and saw the many family members I’ve had the joy of meeting this year. I absolutely *love* his family… They are all so sweet and so caring, and it’s amazing how everyone has pulled together over concern for his mom (who is still in the hospital).

After returning from Georgia I went to pick up my new bike and rode it home. I had the guys at All-Star Bike Shop put on a rack and lights and am using the BG’s panniers. It rides quite differently than my mountain bike. Obviously I can feel more of what’s going on in the road because there is no suspension, but I also feel that when I pedal I’m moving faster than with the same amount of pedaling on the mountain bike. It just feels more efficient. The gears are really nice too, much better than the grip shifts. I am very happy with it. Last weekend we rode nearly 20 miles on one of the many local greenways and had a fantastic day in the sun at Umstead State park. (Pictures coming soon, I swear.)

On the job front, I interviewed at one more place and the meeting went quite well. It seems as though my experience working (and being comfortable with) adult products actually paid off a bit because they told me it was one reason they wanted to offer me the position. (A small percentage of the work will be adult-oriented.) I received the offer on my birthday, which rocked, and after some negotiations I accepted a few days later. I am taking a pay cut, but it is a telecommuting web design position, which allows me to work remotely and have my internet costs reimbursed, not to mention work on my Mac. They focus on standards compliant site architecture and there’s a possibility for me to be involved in the future development of templates and framework that will allow for more efficient workflows.

All that, *and* I get to share lunchtime with the BG. :)

As far as new friends are concerned, I’ve been spending some of my Wednesday nights with Brandon. He seriously cracks me up. We go to a bar in downtown Raleigh and watch reality TV shows with a bunch of his friends. I find the whole thing hilarious.

I also see Morgan about once a week which is great. I really like this girl, she’s smart, witty and a little bitter (it’s funny). And each time I hang out with her I like her more. She’s got a really interesting history and is a fantastic artist. I saw her house last night and it is sweet. There are huge old-growth trees in her back yard and a hammock! I am not sure she realizes just how often I’ll be subtly making plans to be at her place to settle my ass in that thing. ;)

Over the past few days I have managed to re-center myself. I had been feeling emotionally up and down since I arrived in Raleigh, which is kind of annoying. I assume that not having a job is really the source of the tension I’ve felt, but it’d manifested itself into a lethargic, shiftless state that has gotten me nowhere except feeling crazy. I’ve overanalyzed everything lately and was becoming quite sick of myself. But when the BG left for Uruguay I figured this was a great opportunity to spend some time doing my own thing and getting my head straight. That is exactly what I’ve been doing and I feel much better. :)

I am excited to start my new job, for which I have a staff meeting this Thursday at a coffee shop in RTP. And I’ve signed up for some classes at Wake Tech (Spanish!) in the spring to get me back on track. I also have myself scheduled to volunteer at the ReStore this week (but if I’m not feeling better I might not go). Finally, this coming weekend I am headed up to DC to visit friends (including Jess!).

I am relieved that it’s all beginning to come together. :)

sounds like i’m in a womb

As a kid, I had frequent ear infections. I *still* remember being a toddler, having that mask come over my face to send me to unconscious bliss just before the ear tube surgery. That is probably my earliest memory. They were saying something to me about crayons…

Years later, growing up, I would get them and in the middle of the night I would take my guys, my pink and white blanket and sneak into (tip toe!) my parents’ bedroom to lay on the floor. I have no idea what this accomplished except make me at least a little comforted that I had someone there. My mom always woke up and sat with me for a while.

Anyway, about eight years ago I had another surgery to repair a deviated septum which was believed to assist in relieving the frequency of infections. I am not sure if it worked, or if I grew out of them a bit, but since then I’ve had only two. One happened in 2004 while I lived in Virginia, and the second is happening right now.

I don’t ever remember having *both* ears affected at the same time. Usually, it only occurs in my right side. Tonight I went out with Morgan but didn’t last more than three hours as I felt my ears slowly close… and then ache. It honestly feels like someone is stabbing me in both ear canals.

I tell you that I am fine with being by myself when I’m not well, unless I’m sick with this shit. All I want right now is to be at home with my mom. (Or have the BG make me soup.)

Ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.