The BG’s mom passed away on the 16th.
We drove down the night before to visit her and then got the call the next morning. I stood with the BG, his grandmother and his brother as his mom died. I felt it was my role to support them, so I that’s what I tried to do.
The funeral was Monday and I cried because of my sadness for the BG and his family. The entire week we stayed in Macon where we began to clean out her house.
I do not know how I will feel or act when I tell one of my parents a last goodbye.
This is what I think about now.
So, over the past few weeks, since Xmas actually, I’ve been really involved with work. As much as I love getting paid well, putting in 60+ hours a week for the entire month of January confirms for me that I would rather stab my eyes out than do this shit for the rest of my life.
But.
None of that is terribly important. The BG and I are pretty fucking good at devising ideas and making plans. That means all my hard work is for a cause: I’ve been saving every penny so that we will have materials and equipment to build our home in North Georgia.
Georgia? Well, it wouldn’t have been my first pick, but the BG has some family land near Toccoa so that’s where we’re headed. And we have all the freedom to make it what we want, so I’ll be checking off another goal from 43things: Live off the grid.
I moved to Raleigh for several reasons, saving money being one of them. And we don’t live in a 320 sq. foot apartment for the fun of it. $450 a month in rent (all utilities included) sure as hell sounds pretty yummy when you’re trying to save as much as possible.
It’s all we talk about. It’s our dream. :) We’re going to start building a cob house and farm on the family land sometime in 2011*. We’ve got a ton of money saved up already, more than I’ve ever saved for anything. And I can’t explain how excited I am that we’re on a path to something so awesome.
We’ve stocked our library with resources to get us started and we’ll be blogging about our progress every step of the way. :)

*After, of course, our one year trip to who knows where.
I need to write a proper post summarizing all that’s been going on over the last two months, but for now, know that over the last week I both watched someone die and held a gun in my hand.
And the two aren’t related in the way you may think.
Music plays, air moves as I open the door. The rain clouds fight off the sun on this 60 degree day in February, and I smile as I open a unexpected gift from my friend Sarah from Portland.
*So* unexpected. :) Happy Valentine’s Day to me!
I’ve been so so so busy lately with working two jobs that I’ve let the list of fun things I really *want* to do get out of control. This gift reminds me of those things.
*This* is what matters, dudes. ;)

Dude, my old company in Portland is
famous! :)
Scroll down to “Special Report: Unusual Portland Area Business Makes Millions” and watch the video.
Heheheeee!