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goal setting

Many months ago I found 43things with m and the two of us were like, where the hell as THIS been all our lives? I wrote up about 25 original goals I wanted to achieve and since then maybe completed half of them. Most of the others on my list have either been deleted or are still sitting there with zero progress, OR are real long-term goals that I’ve not been able to make any steps toward in Raleigh.

In the shower just now (where I do all my best thinking), I decided that one reason I sometimes feel like total ass is that I’ve forgotten my personal path. It’s tough for me to remain on this path when I’m in a relationship and I won’t go into all the details of why this occurs except to say that when it does, it takes me months to realize it. (Probably because of that whole “honeymoon” period in a new relationship people refer to… Yea. It happens.) I thought about where I’m headed personally, when I feel best and what I’m interested in playing around with that I haven’t yet. This isn’t to say that I don’t, on a daily basis, remember the things in the near future I’d like to do, like meet new people and practice yoga, etc. But there’s so much going on in my head at any given moment that things become disconnected, and in addition I have this really horrible habit of waiting around for BG to do certain stuff which simply wastes time, so I’ve decided to revisit my master goals list, organize it and re-commit.

After all this thinking and excitement in my shower I came back to the compy and did my daily search on delicious’ popular links to find this, which summed up all of why I get sidetracked and more.

Back soon with the list… :)

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on October 4, 2008

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weak

I’ve taken the self-awareness thing too far… overanalyzing everything and taking *everything* personally. My commitment to the Four Agreements has seriously wavered and it’s having an extreme negative effect on me. I’m having a hard time centering myself.

The thing that sucks is now that we’re getting all serious about launching these other blogs and living our lives in a more public view, I’m holding back here, because I’m embarrassed and ashamed of how weak I’ve been and I’m not wanting it to affect the other goals the BG and I are trying to achieve.

I hate to say this, but I honestly wish I could just smoke a bowl and space out once in a while. You know, just like I did way back when…

Ugh.

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on July 8, 2008

in complaining, goals, relationships, sadness, self-awareness and wtf

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amazement

Exactly one year ago, I was enjoying a glass of wine with my new roommates in Portland. I had just arrived an hour ago and was reveling to myself what an accomplishment this was for me.

In five more days I’ll be in total amazement… *again*. ;)

Here are the photos from my trip last year.

(I chose Portland based on articles such as this. I’m sad to say that this is why I miss it most… because no matter where I go, nothing seems to stack up.)

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on March 5, 2008

in happiness, sadness, self-awareness and the_move

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the past few weeks and a dream

So, over the past few weeks, since Xmas actually, I’ve been really involved with work. As much as I love getting paid well, putting in 60+ hours a week for the entire month of January confirms for me that I would rather stab my eyes out than do this shit for the rest of my life.

But.

None of that is terribly important. The BG and I are pretty fucking good at devising ideas and making plans. That means all my hard work is for a cause: I’ve been saving every penny so that we will have materials and equipment to build our home in North Georgia.

Georgia? Well, it wouldn’t have been my first pick, but the BG has some family land near Toccoa so that’s where we’re headed. And we have all the freedom to make it what we want, so I’ll be checking off another goal from 43things: Live off the grid.

I moved to Raleigh for several reasons, saving money being one of them. And we don’t live in a 320 sq. foot apartment for the fun of it. $450 a month in rent (all utilities included) sure as hell sounds pretty yummy when you’re trying to save as much as possible.

It’s all we talk about. It’s our dream. :) We’re going to start building a cob house and farm on the family land sometime in 2011*. We’ve got a ton of money saved up already, more than I’ve ever saved for anything. And I can’t explain how excited I am that we’re on a path to something so awesome.

We’ve stocked our library with resources to get us started and we’ll be blogging about our progress every step of the way. :)

*After, of course, our one year trip to who knows where.

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on February 25, 2008

in 43things, green living, happiness, the_other_move and work

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promises, promises

The idea of “New Year’s Resolutions” kinda pisses me off. Mostly because I just get aggravated when people say a bunch of bullshit that I assume they’ll never follow through on. I’ve been slowly understanding, though, that I jump to conclusions a lot and become bitter over things without any real logic. (Like my absolute distaste for Harry Potter. I’ve never read the books, but I can’t stand the series. See? No logic.)

Anyway. This year I’ve decided to make some changes, whether or not related to the New Year.

1. Not get mad so often over silly things (see above).
2. Call my friends. (M has promised to push me so that I do it.)
3. Work out.
4. Another attempt at veg*nism. (Prompted by the BG… Eeeeee!)
5. Join a CSA, make and preserve food!

The BG and I joined the YMCA yesterday which is *brand new*. It’s listed as such on their website, but I forgot about it until we walked in the door. Needless to say, it’s gorgeous and everyone there is really nice. The yoga and other studio classes (which include pilates, kickboxing and African dancing!) are included in the $37/month price. I’m very excited. It’s less than a mile and a half from where we live which is a great biking distance. We attended yoga together both yesterday and today, and today we worked out in the gym using our bikes to get there and back.

Eeee!

And, I’m (we’re) taking another shot at not eating eggs or cheese… we’ll see how it works out. In addition, we’ve chosen a CSA to join. They drop off the loot weekly at the Whole Foods store for us to pick up, which is super convenient. And the BG has purchased some equipment for us to begin canning food.

Woo! :D

Oh, and just to add to all this excitement? Last night we took a stab at making homemade ravioli which turned out REALLY WELL. Pics coming soon. :D

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on January 5, 2008

in bicycling, food, green living, happiness and yoga

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weekend, camping and updates

I went camping alone at Cape Meares this weekend. It rocked.

I started off Saturday morning at the UPS store shipping a box of happiness to the BG. At that point I had no idea where I was going to end up camping because most of the sites I tried to reserve were booked. The dude at UPS actually told me about Cape Meares and printed me a map and directions (what a nice guy!). It was super easy to get to, just outside of Tillamook, and there was no one there save for a few stray walkers along the beach during daylight.

It was just what I needed, apparently, because since then I’ve felt really great. Accomplishing goals do that for me. :)

This week, on Thursday, I’m going to walk over to Habitat for Humanity’s ReStore warehouse (which is just one block from my work building) and talk to a guy named Joe about volunteering on Saturdays. I’m pretty excited about it.

I finished another sizable site at work this week and it’s going to look awesome when it goes live. I didn’t design it, Hilary did, but I did all the page layout in CSS. There were some hurdles I had to jump over to get everything looking right because the original site was done with tables. I had to take apart everything and rearrange some stuff. Anyway, the bosses and Hilary are happy and so am I.

I’ve been riding my bike to and from work for two weeks now and I’m having major pain in my left hip. It’s the same stupid pain I get when I stand in a line for too long, or wash dishes in the same spot without moving, or standing and waiting for the bus… except this is like 20 times worse. I believe my bicycle needs adjustment. My handlebars are low, I have long legs and a short-ish torso. There’s definitely something up, so I’m waiting for a call back from the downtown Bike Gallery. I am making an appointment for a fitting service. It’s $75 and they have a one-year guarantee (I can go back any time and fine tune adjustments as necessary). Hopefully this works and the pain subsides. I bailed on salsa class last night because I could barely walk.

There are a few people I’ve talked to via email that I’m hoping to meet soon; one from CL and two I got connected to through m. They all sound like sweethearts.

And speaking of sweethearts, last night I hung out with Holly and it was great. That girl kicks ass.

I have 8 more days until I see m. We shall re-spark the tewtal awesomeness that I miss so much.

My goal for this weekend is to figure out my Holga, which I got in the mail yesterday. The packaging and stuff that it came with looks pretty sweet. I’m set. I’m not sure if I have enough time to take pics and get them developed before I leave for PA; I’d like to make sure I’m doing this shit right before I take photos when I’m with m. We’ll see.

Teehee!!!

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on August 29, 2007

in bicycling, design, happiness, learning, photography, relationships, travel and volunteer

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